Worried

I've committed to writing honestly in this blog and to telling the whole story of living with Marcus. But, today I am hesitant, back to feeling like hiding. Marcus did something that was an "accident" but I am having a hard time with it.

The end result was that boiling water ended up on the puppy. After much yelping and my panicking, Marcus says he was testing the spaghetti (he was cooking) and took a step back and tripped over the puppy. Water spilled from the spoon onto the dog. Now, the puppy does get under your feet and we trip or he gets stepped on (he's still learning about feet). So the accident piece could be reasonable. But...

All of his "accidents" have reasonable explanations. But are they really accidents? Is he really that much of a clumsy, not knowing his own strength kid? I think that partly he is, but I am totally freaked about the hot water on the dog. What if he did it on purpose?!

Gym destroyer

We had several good weeks with the new behavior mod idea, but...he destroyed the gym on Thursday. He had started not to care so much about getting ice cream at home. I was prepared for that and have asked what other something he would like but haven't gotten an answer yet.

His teacher will be on medical leave in a few days but Marcus seems okay about it. Remember that, for Marcus, all change is bad so I am worried about such a big change. While the teacher may not think so, Marcus really likes him and his leaving will likely be upsetting. However, Marcus knows the sub. Mostly he's worried about Mr. Anderson. He really is a tender soul once you get past the tantrums.

Got some really helpful comments about whether we should head back to residential placement. So far, everyone thinks we should do it. When we had a string of good days, I got cold feet. But, we are going ahead with the process, meaning we have tons of paperwork to fill out and then we have to see whether OMH will approve it. If they don't, we'll try going to CSE. Either way, there has to be a spot in residential so we may have a long wait time. Marcus was trying not to go by focusing on staying cool at school, but that seems to have been too much for him. We'll have to see what next week holds, then it's winter break.